Thursday, September 30, 2010


So, the semester has finally set in.  I guess the first five weeks didn't really count.  

Kyle and I are both feeling the stress of Senior Seminar.  What a hateful class.  We're in different sections, and it seems maybe we'd be better suited to be in each other's class instead of our own (but for scheduling reasons, that didn't exactly work out).  He's doing qualitative research on LDS couples who married at a young age, and I'm writing and binding my own manifesto on how being a pre-service teacher has prepared me for motherhood.  I think he's struggling because he hates doing technical stuff like research.  On the flip side, I'm struggling because I haven't got a creative bone in my body and even though I had to take a creative writing course, all I'm good at is academic writing.  Which is boring in an assignment like mine.

So, if nothing else, we're not lacking in support.  My manifesto is due first (tomorrow) and so tonight he and I are going to go through it and he's going to help me make it more....interesting?  Appropriate for the format?  I would have just asked him to write it for me, but he doesn't know too much about teaching OR preparing for motherhood, so I suppose maybe it's a good idea I did the content.  As a result, I'm going to help Kyle with his research.  I don't know how, but I've promised him that I will!  Maybe I get points because I'm the one who suggested the topic? Hmmmm...

We also have a paper that was moved from today to Tuesday.  I only decided what I was doing it on, like, yesterday (before we got the email about the extension), but magically was able to make it appear--completed--today.  Don't even ask me how I did it...I'm not even sure.  I don't remember writing half of it.  I revisited it for editing earlier today though and it's not bad.  Impressive.

I think it's so strange how I'm not someone who does well under pressure (I'd much rather have things ready two weeks ahead of time) but somehow I manage to get everything done?  It's weird to me that sometimes I don't even remember doing assignments but it happens.  Does anyone else feel that way?  I mentioned this to my Brit Lit prof when Kyle asked for an extension on his paper and he joked about getting the number for the seven little dwarves that come to do my homework.

Well, I guess they came again.  Funny thing is that on top of everything else I don't remember, calling them is one!  Must have been sleeping.


Thursday, September 23, 2010

"Let them (listen to) Cake."

So I was on a friend's wall on Facebook and was complaining that she hadn't posted to her blog in 9 months, but then I found this!  Now I'm cheerful again!  My favorite is the black guy, but I also like the psychologist....

Make yourself happy.  Have some Cake :)

Saturday, September 18, 2010


To whom it may concern: 

Today was the LAST DAY that I was polite when someone asked me about when we're having kids.  Please, for your safety, do not ask me about when we're having kids, if I'm pregnant, why we don't have a baby yet, etc.  IT'S RUDE.  If you ask, it means YOU ARE A RUDE PERSON.  I do not care if you're one of my good friends, one of my coworkers, one of my acquaintances, or one of our family members.  I don't care if you're joking or "not trying to hurt my feelings".  It's NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS, and you DO hurt my feelings.  

Maybe we ARE trying but haven't been able to conceive.  

Maybe we don't know if we really want kids at all but we've not come out and said that because everyone WANTS and EXPECTS us to have kids.

Maybe I actually AM pregnant, but I'm just not telling you (and after all this crap, I've decided that if that's the case, I would NOT announce it because most of the people that I know are so rude that they don't deserve to know).

Maybe I've lost one, and you just don't know it (I'm sure that thought makes you feel really good, huh?).

I'm so over trying to explain to people why I don't appear to be pregnant or why there is no child living in our house with us yet.  So back off, because next time, I'll say something that will make you feel awkward and stupid, and you'll definitely wish you hadn't asked.  Do not comment on this post, do not message apologizing or applauding me...I don't care what you have to say.  What's done is done.  I'm going to chalk it up to people being stupid sometimes.

I'm not sorry if I've offended anyone, because you obviously don't care if you offend us.


Wednesday, September 15, 2010


Alright.  It's happened.  Everyone on campus is getting sick, so why not me, huh?  I don't want to be sick.  I hate being sick.  I don't want people to baby me or feel sorry for me...I actually don't like to talk about it if people ask (and I don't like to keep bringing it up and use it as an excuse to get out of housework, which is not unlike someone I live with!). 

So mostly it started on Monday night...I went to work and came home exhausted.  I just chalked it up to allergies and being tired from class and work and no break.  I did my homework and got to bed really late (probably could have avoided that), only to find it worse yesterday.  I was hot and cold, achy, stuffed up, coughing, tired, and miserable.  Again I think work exacerbated it, but I went to bed a little early, took the morning off from practicum, and now am feeling slightly better (at least I feel like I got about the right amount of rest)!

I do have a busy day ahead of me, though...I have to finish about three assignments before class as well as do some baking for tonight's Mutual activity...ugh.  At least I can do it in my pajamas while sort of sitting around.  I kind of count that as relaxing.  And, hey!  Best part?  No work for three days.  Maybe that'll help me clear this up :)

Saturday, September 11, 2010

I've written lots of posts about dreaming and talking during sleep.  But I finally found an article about dreams that I found rather interesting....and lots of facts about it I've noticed to be true!  I've had three dreams this week about the state of my and Kyle's relationship, and, as lots of people know, one of my worst nightmares is having my teeth fall out :(  So read this article if you're interested about dreams!

8 Things You Didn’t Know About Dreams

Everyone dreams—every single night—and yet we tend to know so little about our dreams. Where do they come from? What do they mean? Can we control them and should we try to interpret them? We spoke to the dream experts to bring you nine surprising facts about dreams. Read before snoozing.
1. Dreaming can help you learn.
If you’re studying for a test or trying to learn a new task, you might consider taking a nap or heading to bed early rather than hovering over a textbook an hour longer. Here’s why: When the brain dreams, it helps you learn and solve problems, say researchers at Harvard Medical School. In a study that appeared in a recent issue of Current Biology, researchers report that dreams are the brain’s way of processing, integrating and understanding new information. To improve the quality of your sleep—and your brain’s ability to learn—avoid noise in the bedroom, such as the TV, which may negatively impact the length and quality of dreams.

2. The most common dream? Your spouse is cheating.
If you’ve ever woken up in a cold sweat after dreaming about your husband’s extramarital escapade with your best friend, you’re not alone, says Lauri Quinn Loewenberg, a dream expert, author and media personality. “The most commonly reported dream is the one where your mate is cheating,” she says. Loewenberg conducted a survey of more than 5,000 people, and found that the infidelity dream is the nightmare that haunts most people—sometimes on a recurring basis. It rarely has anything to do with an actual affair, she explains, but rather the common and universal fear of being wronged or left alone.

3. You can have several—even a dozen—dreams in one night.
It’s not just one dream per night, but rather dozens of them, say experts—you just may not remember them all. “We dream every 90 minutes throughout the night, with each cycle of dreaming being longer than the previous,” explains Loewenberg. “The first dream of the night is about 5 minutes long and the last dream you have before awakening can be 45 minutes to an hour long.” It is estimated that most people have more than 100,000 dreams in a lifetime.

4. You can linger in a dream after waking.
Have you ever woken up from such a beautiful, perfect dream that you wished you could go back to sleep to soak it all up (you know, the dream about George Clooney?)? You can! Just lie still—don’t move a muscle—and you can remain in a semi-dreamlike state for a few minutes. “The best way to remember your dreams is to simply stay put when you wake up,” says Loewenberg. “Remain in the position you woke up in, because that is the position you were dreaming in. When you move your body, you disconnect yourself from the dream you were just in seconds ago.”

5. Even bizarre dreams can be interpreted.
While it can be hard to believe that an oddball dream about your mother, a circus and a snowstorm can have any bearing on real life, there may be symbolism and potential meaning to be mined in every dream—you just have to look for it, says Harvard-trained psychotherapist Jeffrey Sumber. "The meaning of our dreams oftentimes relates to things we are needing to understand about ourselves and the world around us,” he says. Instead of shrugging off strange dreams, think about how they make you feel. “We tend to dismiss these dreams due to the strange components, yet it is the feeling we have in these dreams that matters most,” he explains. “Sometimes the circus and the snowstorm are just fillers that allow us to process the range of emotions we feel about our mother and give us the necessary distraction so we can actually experience that spectrum of emotion.”

6. Recurring dreams may be your mind’s way of telling you something.
Do you have the same nightmare over and over again? Loewenberg suggests looking for underlying messages in recurring dreams so that you can rid yourself of them. For example, a common recurring nightmare people have involves losing or cracking their teeth. For this dream, she recommends that people think about what your teeth and your mouth represent. “To the dreaming mind, your teeth, as well as any part of your mouth, are symbolic of your words,” she says. “Paying attention to your teeth dreams helps you to monitor and improve the way you communicate.”

7. You can control your dreams.
The premise of the new movie Inception is that people can take the reins of their dreams and make them what they want them to be. But it may not just be a Hollywood fantasy. According to the results of a new survey of 3,000 people, dream control, or “lucid dreaming” may be a real thing. In fact, 64.9 percent of participants reported being aware they were dreaming within a dream, and 34 percent said they can sometimes control what happens in their dreams. Taking charge of the content of your dreams isn’t a skill everyone has, but it can be developed, says Kelly Bulkeley, PhD, a dream researcher and visiting scholar at the Graduate Theological Union in Berkley, California. The technique is particularly useful for people who suffer from recurring nightmares, he says. Dr. Bulkeley suggests giving yourself a pep talk of sorts before you go to sleep by saying: “If I have that dream again, I’m going to try to remember that’s it’s only a dream, and be aware of that.” When you learn to be aware that you are dreaming—within a dream—you not only have the power to steer yourself away from the monster and into the arms of Brad Pitt, for instance, but you train your mind to avoid nightmares in the first place. “Lucid dreaming enhances your ability to learn from the dream state,” says Dr. Bulkeley.

8. You don’t have to be asleep to dream.
Turns out, you can dream at your desk at work, in the car, even at your kid’s soccer game. Wakeful dreaming—not to be confused with daydreaming—is real and somewhat easy to do, says Dr. Bulkeley; it just involves tapping into your active imagination. The first step is to think about a recent dream you had (preferably a good one!). “Find a quiet contemplative place and bring a dream that you remember back into your waking awareness and let it unfold,” he says. “Let the dream re-energize.” Wakeful dreaming can be used as a relaxation tool, but Dr. Bulkeley says it can also help your mind process a puzzling dream. “It creates a more fluid interaction between unconscious parts of the mind and wakeful parts of the mind,” he says. 

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Arriving Babies (can I have one pleaaaaase?)

So a few weeks ago I wrote a post that mentioned all the babies that were being born in the next few months.  Five have come within the past two weeks (three yesterday) and I've discovered two more of my friends are expecting.  Babies are everywhere!

So I've had baby on the brain.  I can't wait until Kyle and I are ready to have our own!  But I think I might need a fix soon before that.  Does anyone want to lend their boy/girl out to me for a few hours?  It might be enough to hold one.  Maybe I'll quit bugging Kyle about babies if I can just hold one for a little while :(

Other than babies, I've been thinking really hard on all my school projects and assignments and I'm actually quite far ahead (like three days!) in my work.  This NEVER happens.  I'll attribute it to being overly works wonders!  I was up late last night and up early this morning to prepare/present a project, and since my allergies have been ridiculous and no one else is home, I think I'll use my four-hour break to watch a movie and eat chocolate.  It sounds like a perfect plan! 

And maybe I'll think of some more baby names and plan which of us I'd want them to look like.  Okay, you're right...there's no planning to that...hopefully they all look like Kyle!